User Profile

First let me talk about myself and physical image. I’m 17 years old and 6’ 2”. Born on December 15, 1987 to my parents that are both divorced later on in my childhood. I have hazel eyes that stay mainly green and since I’m half Asian I find that special since the dominate color for the eye is usually a dark color of brown for half Asians but you come across a person like me that has colored eyes and is considered lucky. I met a few people that thought my eyes were contacts and they looked closer to see that they are mine and real. I find that the best physical quality of my body for the reasons I already stated. You know I stopped a person from committing suicide because of them. She told me that I had this pure clear image when she looked in my eyes that gave me a huge boost of self esteem but yet still sadden by her thoughts. Don’t worry she is still alive and seems to be doing well….seems so…. my physical built is slim and that is thanks to my metabolism that does over do it sometimes because i can become hungry after i ate a lot of food or i lose a couple of pounds for being sick for a while and can't eat so my body eats itself, so its hard to gain back weight so i'm still trying and i have gain back almost all that i have lost so thats good.

Family, I love them to death but they seem to be one big lie and wish to occupy their life so they don’t have to be in mine. My dad has a life of stress and it shows through his aged face that is far for his time. He is in his 40’s and close to 50’s. My dad said something to me that I took to heart but broke it through the same words he used and they too went straight to my heart. He said that he’s there for me and that we can talk. He’s there when I need him as an emergency but when it comes to my emotionally problems he just says its in the past and get over it… unless somebody dies or is something that seems serious that doesn’t include my own well being then he’ll listen. I don’t talk to him about my life any more and I’m getting out of his slowly. I can’t wait to grow into my own life but yet I’m not ready for all the responsibilities that it will bring to me. My stepmom seems to be off and on bitchy mode. I can tell when she will be like that through her response through questions and eye contact, slow fast response and no eye contact means she’s stress or bitchy. My mother is a working women and I can understand her need for my services of the house cleaning or watching my little brother, but she needs to know and remember I’m growing up and have a life of my own. Other then that she’s pretty cool and has a great taste in fashion and can pick out what I would like without me being there, but I’m growing out of the fashion world to something more I don’t know, me on the inside but my dad won’t allow that change to happen. He said he accepts me no matter what. He ate his own words and spit them out at me like spears at my heart again. My stepdad is cool. He likes like kid stuff like Spongebob, nothing my dad can bring himself to like or want to like. I never got close to him but comparing to my dad, he would be a better choice for a father I have to admit…

Love, what a topic to talk about. I do believe in love and who knows I might be in it and don’t know what it is till it’s gone. I might have been in love before and I seem to put a curse of love on people. I’m not trying to say that everybody falls for me but I am truly unique in the coolest and weirdest ways but it’s all good because a lot of people like me but seriously people don’t fall for me but I have a lot of friends. Love is a feeling that is strong and you can be blind before you can actually see it. The song from Extreme says it all in my opinion, More Than Words. Basically I Love You is just a word that anyone can say but more than words is just beyond that which makes it special and the way you say it and when you really do feel love for that person then it’ll mean more. Have I been in love? Yes I think I have but I am still young and not ready to take responsibilities for it so even thought I might of felt it I wasn’t ready for it. Who knows I might be in the same situation then as I am now. I haven’t been in many relationships in my life. Counting up to now I’ve been in 8 relationships and I’m in one now and it’s included. Most of them were short, 1 was long but it was pointless, 2 were short but one wasn’t my doing when it came to ending it and the other was mine but I regret it for she might have been the one I fell in love with but like I said I am young so I’m not ready, even though I might of felt it… and the one I’m in now have been going one for a few weeks now so go me! I’m shy when it comes to the first move, I don’t know what to do when it comes to it. That can range from kissing to holding their hands, I don’t’ know how comfortable they’ll be so I usually don’t do anything but I guess I’m getting more comfortable being in a relationship now so I hope I can break this shell of shyness and have a normal life.

Music, I love music and feel free to do what I want in my room when I’m alone. I like listening to what suits my mood, from happy, to techno, to heavy metal. i remember the change i went through when it came to music, from what i was raised on of country and classic rock to upbeat simple happy music to modern rock, then i dabbled in rap but that was only a few songs, not big on that kind of music. i'm now more of modern rock, some smooth rock like John Mayor and heavy metal and punk. i wish i could express my self more in music but my life with parents wouldn't allow such a big change unfortunally. I like being alone in my room and being alone in my room. Parents piss me off so alone is my only escape to life. I get to talk online, the phone, and cook and see what ever I want on T.V. without interruptions by them.

Art, i love art, sculptors, paintings, ceramics, and modern art. i'm not picky when it comes to it but i'm more of color and imagination instead of an image back when painting was mainly focused on life instead of imagination. i like surrealism and abstraction too. they just bring me to an awe when i see the work that had been created. i make my own work, or use too, i've made human-beast masks, some electrical sculptor like works and others. i found myself artistic as a child but that side of me i depended to much on and now i don't have the ability to create works of art one after another. I'm into writing now. it was poetry but now i'm writing my own lyrics and its going well i suppose. i just need a band to hear what i have to say and written out.

I’m not big on games that involve shooting. The only game that I found amusing that involved that was 007 golden eye for Nintendo 64 but other then that I don’t like games like that, I prefer pokemon because its based on real live animals and so forth. I like games that give me a what if and its not that far off from the real world. I know I live in a life of an imagination but I like it there. There I can fly, things are happy, I have adventures and nothing really goes wrong since I’m the good guy but that’s not the reality I live in so it sucks. the only game i would consider myself in liking is DDR, you really can't go wrong with that game from soo many reasons. 1, you exercise and have fun. 2, it plays at different levels for each person. 3, alot of music selection. 4, easy movements and multi-players. and much more reasons

I’m not ready for the future of taxes and bills. Didn’t Americans come to America to get away from all that but slowly it came to be now like then. I find it stupid that the US and other countries complain about money when they have factories that make them. I think if the past met with the present we could have somewhat a better future through their teachings and way of life and maybe there will be less death and pain in the world and more of honesty and something called hard work. I don’t’ like hard work but I do like something that I can stand back and look at and say Wow I made that by myself, it took this long, and it was worth every minute of it.

I like being alone in my room. Parents piss me off so alone is my only escape to life. I get to talk online, the phone, and cook and see what ever I want on T.V. without interruptions by them. i'm not saying that i like to be alone all the time, only when i don't want to be around them. if i had a choice and all the time and money in the world i would be offbase with my friends and doing whatever we wanted. i do get to do that after school sometimes and during the week ends but money and time is still and issues so the fun has to stop. for me it has to end good for it to be a good day. like any point of the day i wasn't ignored, emo, or lyed too would be a good day even if i came home to a stepmom that was in a mood and a dad that was alittle stressed.

I must of bored you all with my ramblings so I’ll stop there for now…

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